Instabilitate :Adevar sau Minciuna ?

Credeam ca viata mea e simpla, dar in fiecare zi se intampla ceva. Nou. Ciudat, surprinzator, socant, imprevizibil...Dubios.
Sunt sociabila. Si ce e rau in asta ? Se spune ca nu e okay sa te aleaga anturajul pe tine ci sa-ti alegi tu anturajul [ Aceeasi valabilitate daca inlocuiesc "anturaj"cu "prieteni"].
Si faptul ca am ales sa redevin sociabila, nu stiu cat de bine sau rau ma face sa ma simt.
Probabil ca era o modalitate de a autotortura. Probabil ca imi place. Sau nu
Ideea e ca nu sunt in stare sa-mi analizez sentimentele..daca mai sunt..deoarece numai simt nimic.
Un simplu gol de fatada, O senzatie de neliniste si agitatie. Si presimtiri.
Nu sunt genul de fata superstitioasa si cu previziuni gen, dar azi am presimtiri.
Presimitire mai exact ..Ceea ce ma deruta este ca..Habar n-am daca este o presimtire de bine sau, dimpotriva..de rau.
Am inceput sa cred ca nimeni numai spune adevarul. De fapt, spun adevarul mintind. Sau se mint spunand adevarul ? Sau nu realizeaza care reprezinta adevarul si minciuna ? Daca sunt amandoua de fapt un intreg ?
Ma simt inconjurata de un ghem de minciuni, printre care ma confrunt sa vad un fir liber pe care sa-l urmez.
Unii oameni se simt bine mintind..Altii o fac de nevoie..Altii din ipocrizie..Altii..din confuzie ?! Paranoie ?! Íluzie ?! Ambitie ?! ..Nebunie ?! ...PROSTIE ?!
Revenind la subiectul "sociabilitate"..
Am cunoscut o persoana care in mod normal si logic, sau cel putin asa m-as fi mintit pana acum ca este, as fi refuzat sa o cunosc..Da da..Preconceptii. Numai noi, femeile, avem dileme de genul acesta, de teama si furie..din pricina careria viata mea a luat o intorsura neasteptata ..
Am renuntat sa am incredere..Sa ma prefac ca am ? Cand nu stiu daca pot avea in mine ?
Poate ca nu stiu ce vreau.. Dar stiu ce simt. Sau poate prea putin conteaza ce simt.
Mai vinde careva optimism ?


Descurca itele ghemului.

The End ?

"Once upon a time there was a boy and a girl .."
Blah, blah, blah :-@
Toate relatiile incep in modul asta, interesant e modul in care se sfarsesc ele. Niciodata la fel, asta e clar.
Se zice ca in viata nu se merita sa plangi/ suferi pentru cineva.
GOOD POINT ! TRUE !
Ai auzit vreodata de expresia "hai sa lom o pauza iubi, tre`sa ma gandesc daca te mai iubi sau nu ?"
Iti spun eu, e o mare mizerie replica asta :)
Nu exista asa ceva.
Ori e, ori nu e . Scurt pe 2.
Acum ce mai e ..nu poti decat sa astepti. Sau sa speri. Asa se intampla. Se spune ca speranta moare ultima..Dar daca ea e moarta de prea mult timp si tragi cu dintii de fapt de o iluzie desarta ?
Oare exista pauza intr-o relatie ?
Exista "sentimente false "?
Exista iubire maxima intr-o saptamana ?
Exista compromisuri ?
Exista tradare si iertare ?
Exista iertare dupa tradare ?
Exista orgoliu calcat in picioare ?
Exista umilire, injosire ?
Exista iubire...in IUBIRE ?


Multe intrebari..Prea putine raspunsuri



...Ia zi iubi, ma mai iubi sau nu pana la urma :-/ ?




[ Nu e ceea ce pare :)) ]

Diferite stari

.."Si trec prin diferite stari fara sa-mi pese de urmari ".
Oh dha ! :))


Dezmat !









[ Ai grija de tinee ! I miss you :X ]

Wow. Doar wow.

Hello blog ..Yeah..Probabil ti-a fost dor de mine ..
Cat ?! O luna si ?!
Sigur ti-a fost dor de mine :))
Ce luna ...S-au intamplat atat de multe ..Si am atatea de refulat .
Viata mea a luat o intorsatura neasteptata inca din vara asta, gen sfarsitul lui august.
Am plecat in excursie in Grecia ..GRECIA ! Magica tara ..Geniala :X
O saptamana de distractie over and over again.
Atunci a inceput sfarsitul constiintei mele si confuzia si-a facut loc printre sinapsele mele vulnerabile .
Cum pot sentimentele sa o ia razna si sa acapareze ratiunea :-/ ?
Ce dubios e omul .:)
Acum mi-am revenit. O luna am trait doar nebunie, disperare si paranoie .
Acum trebuie sa imi iau revansa.

Pop the glock

Mc am i, people call me Uff
When i rock the party, you bust a nut
Feadz is breaking out the beat
Shit be hotter, than me
Me and he, our crews a militia
Better watch out, my clan get's vicious
Bad ass bitch, im rated X
I'm gifted, aint gotta sell sex
Cross the beach into the street
Gotta work hard, no room to cheat
Crunk in grime, thats my bloodline
Feadz is mixing, Uffies shouting
Uff is banging, feadz is banging
Time to get low, do the tootsie roll
That's how we do, do it hot
And if you understood, would you?
Stop hating and playing hard
I got a loaded bodyguard
Don't make him pull out the glock and pop
Uffies gonna make this shit rock
Like do, do i like
Boys call on me when they feel freaky hot
I run this show, you got to slow
Pick up the pace, with you cracked out face
Uffies banging, feadz is banging
Time to get low, do the tootsie roll
That's how we do, do it hot
And if you understood, would you?
Beat my ryhme, if you can
Yeah you talk shit, think i care?
My style in this flow, is confusing cause you don't know
Pop the glock,Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the
glock, The glock you pop
Sound like twista, fast as hell
I rock this beat you know damn well
Gonna make it to the top
Spit this shit, till you drop
Down low is where you keep it boy
Don't let anyone know
Gonna tear you down, underneath you just a clown
Time everyone see, what you really be
Play the game, the game gets played
I got a man and he goes by feadz
Play the game, the game gets played
I got a man and he goes by feadz
Uff is bangin, feadz is banging
Time to get low, do the tootsie roll
That's how we do, do it hot
And if you understood, would you?
Beat my ryhme, if you can
Yeah you talk shit, think i care?
My style in this flow, is confusing cause you dont know
Pop the glock, The glock you pop
If you outta line its you ill bang pop
Pop the glock, The glock you pop
If you outta line its you ill bang pop
Pop the glock, The glock you pop
If you outta line its you ill bang pop
Uff is banging,Uff is banging,Uff is banging, feadz is banging
Uff is banging, feadz is banging
Time to get low, do the tootsie roll
Uff is banging, feadz is banging, Uff is bangin, feadz is banging
Me and he, our crews a militia
Better watch out my clan get's vicious
That's how we do, do it hot
And if you understood, would you?
Stop hating and playing hard
I got a loaded bodyguard
Don't make him pull out the glock and pop
Uffies gonna make this shit rock
like do, do i like
Boys call on me when they feel freaky hot
I run this show, you got to slow
Pick up the pace, with you cracked out face
Pop the glock,Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock,Pop the glock,Pop the
glock, The glock you pop
Pop the glock,Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock, Pop the glock,Pop the glock,Pop the
glock, The glock you pop
If you outta line its you ï'll bang pop.